Early Present for My Debut ♥

Today, the gates of Heaven opened, showered me with an advance gift for my upcoming birthday on the 20th, I must say that it was the most precious gift I ever received, my heart collided head-on to someone else's heart as the angels sent by the skies unveiled and untied the sparkling present from above, the box opened, no more glitters glistening all over, only light - a light that was too bright that my eyes hurt, tears came gushing through and through, through and through, up until my vision was too blurred to see the gift but left my heart too focused not to miss that something my Master wants me and the other one to espy, that we are made not just for a mere reason, but for and with a purpose - the art of losing one's self in order to bring Him praise, the kind of praise that no one else deserves but Him, the Creator of Heaven and of Earth, the One who molded you and I, the One who never ceases to give us the love way beyond what we deserve, for in reality we deserve nothing, nothing else but nothing, yet there was His Son, sent at the Calvary, paid for the crimes not committed by Him, all done by no one else but us, yet He ransomned us from that burning hell, loved us, cared for us, appointed a call for us, and I believe that, that same call is now shouting at me, at us, the perfect moment had arrived to respond to that call, a call too loud to go ignored and unnoticed, a call that may be wrapped up in a blissful or tormenting event, and as for mine, it was a mixture of both - torment and bliss, was wrapped into pain but in no time I believe that will be transformed into a blissful one, I cannot help not to be excited for the surprises of the One who calls, I shed tears upon receiving the gift, upon hearing the call, I even whined, blinked my eyes to throw away every tear, but I believe that the God of a thousand kisses graced me with one which kissed away all those tears, transforming every bit into positive anticipation of what tomorrow may bring, of what the future holds, not only to herself or the other one, but for their nation as well, their nation who is currently in dire need of people who will respond to their call, to move out from their places of comfort to take part into something larger than themselves, in shaping up the next generation, in building up a foundation for more tomorrows, in raising up a race that was once soaring too high, too high that now is nowhere to be found, sadly - all the tears that came out from my being washed away every unneccessary thing so that I would be able to focus on the essentials, the thing that really matters most, and the things which matters more lies neither in myself nor in my emotions, but can solely be found in a heart made pure by the Master who gave me a Mission to accomplish and a Mate meant to be initially put aside in order to focus to the mission, a realization was instilled in my mind - that at times, it takes a painful event for someone to come up to a piece such as this which narrates how nothing was left in her treasure chest for it was emptied by the Master who called her, there was nothing left, not a single thing was left - now readers may be wondering why there are lots of commas and the presence of a period was nowhere to be found, it is just for a reason that this piece, as such as this journey is just about to begin and putting an end to this is very extraneous as of the mean time, at the end of the day, it will still always fall into that same sunset, that obedience is always- with no exception -better than sacrifice, now Master, now that You are the only One I have in my treasure chest, here's my broken heart, deeply wounded and crushed, please accept it, all glory and praise be unto Thy feet as I marvel through the call you gave me --------------------

Happy Beeday!

Happy birthday Ate Aiz! We love you. : )

Free Power Rest

"Come to me all you heavy laden and I will give you rest..."

These are the very same words from my ‘Dad’ who has been very faithful to me since the beginning of time, even before I was conceived in my mother’s womb. There ‘He’ was, watching my every move, guiding my first steps, listening to the utterance of my first few words, lovingly watching me as I grow up. There ‘He’ was, standing behind my back, ready to catch me if ever I will fall.

As the sheets of the calendar are one by one flying off which signals that I am growing old – not that really old, just older when I was a toddler – I realized how ‘He’ was still very faithful to me. And mind you, that faithfulness did not stop there, for in fact, up until this moment… That same faithful ‘Dad’ I once knew is far beyond more faithful, in spite of the mishaps I bumped myself into.

I am clueless as to why ‘He’ chose to call me ‘His’ child even if I am no good… Even if at times I let my sinful human nature rule over my life; even if I am selfish in my own ways; even if most of the time, I find it hard to forgive those who caused my agony; even if I always insist my own ways; even if I do not let ‘Him’ in, in all the areas of my life; even if I am stubbornly disobedient. Plainly unworthy.

It has been said that life is composed of ninety five percent beautiful and the five percent left is the unpleasant part. But then at times, I do not find life beautiful as how it really is. I refuse to believe that it is beautiful for I tend to invest my focus on that five percent which is unpleasant. Nevertheless, I am more than grateful to my ‘Dad’ who always makes me realize that life, if lived with ‘Him’ and for ‘Him’ is tantamount to an everlasting bliss.

If you know me well and long enough… You might be wondering who is that ‘Dad’ I am referring to, for you might know that I have not seen my father personally, not in a single moment, I only saw him on a picture. But that ‘Dad’ I was referring to is none other than my Heavenly Father. ‘He’ who has been there for me, guided me, loved me, accepted me, no, not for the good things that I have done and in spite of who and what I am. Sweet Jesus. ♥

God loved me… and having ‘Him’ alone in my life is more than enough. All of ‘Him’ is more than enough for me. He is the strength of my heart, my strong hold, and my firm foundation. ‘He’ keeps me sane. ‘He’ keeps me breathing for ‘He’ is the air that I breathe. Everyone may turn against me, everyone might fool me, everyone might kill me through inflicting excruciating pain in my being, everyone might leave me, everyone might not be true to me, and this time… just once, I am officially breaking the ice of silence I have long built, letting the whole world know that I SIMPLY DON’T CARE.

I couldn’t care less… For I know that I do not have the power to change how other people will act towards me. And if ever I have that power, I do not wish to change the way they would respond to me, for there lies the irony of it. It enables me to segregate the real ones from the great pretenders just like segregating garbage from gems. I am growing tired with the things that do not want to be changed. So now, I am laying down everything at the foot of ‘His’ cross. Laying down my pride, I simply say, that ‘He’s’ all that I need.

Now, I am coming back to my first love – to my ‘Dad.’ I will be availing of that rest ‘He’ offers us with. How about you? Stocks are running out… You need not go to the nearest sari-sari stores in order to avail of this special offer from ‘Him.’ Avail now… All you have to do is to close your eyes and say, “Here I am Lord… I am Yours.”

Be embraced by God’s grace today. Stop frowning. Be happy.

(Okay, yah I know right, I must be telling these to myself…Ü)

P.S. Pabati... Happy Birthday Te Aiz! : )

A Self-confessed Strawberry

“A Self-confessed Strawberry”


Strawberry utters, “thud…thud…thud”

It’s as if it is beating and alive

Like that of human’s painted in crimson


An indecipherable strawberry you are,

Highly ghastly and obnoxious are your ways

Swarthy in complexion and odious in face


Extricate yourself from jaundice

Make the world a humane place – not only

For you, but for the other strawberries as well.

Impromptu poem making activity during my Poetry class last July 14, 2009.

Harangue.

I am no soothsayer... I cannot foreknow or predict the things that are about to take place in the near future. I do not know what tomorrow has in store for each and everyone of us. I actually find the unknown eerie at times, nevertheless, I know that all the things we do now will have an effect and an impact to the things that are about to occur later on. I don't want my life to become a shambles, that is why I am initiating some changes now. Alongside with that change is the act of extricating myself from hellacious inequities that this world bombards me with. I thoroughly believe that my heart's prowess needs to be rejuvenated and festoon with more love, forgiveness, patience, and faith. Faith to the One who upholds me in His hands and faith to the things that are yet to be seen and unveiled before my eyes. I like what Willian Shakespeare said,

"Be just, and fear not.
Let all the ends thou aim'st at be thy country's,
Thy God's and truth's."

Indeed, perfect bliss it is to be found in God alone. Sweet serenity it is to be satisfied in Him alone. Loads of benevolence to live forgiven and to forgive so that in return I may live. Love it is to be accepted and appreciated for who and what I am - no more, no less. Overwhelming it is to be loved by a God like Him who is too wise to be mistaken and too good to be unkind.

Kindly bear with me... It's 4:17 AM already and I haven't slumbered yet, not in a single second since yesterday. I just felt the need to write something to release some of the unnecessary baggages that I am currently toting. Things are still crazy and convoluted, good thing, God is continously showering me with people whom I can present myself with no pretensions or whatsoever as such. Loads of thanksgiving to you, folks. You know who you are. Thank you for being there. Above all, I thank the Lord, for I know that through His overflowing Grace, vindication and redemption will be given to those who are badly in need of them.

I do not know if I still have time to sleep. I have to go to church by 7 AM and there are still lots of tasks to be accomplished. Anyhow, I acknowledge the fact that I have all the time to choose happiness over worry and fear with what might happen. I know that God holds our lives, nothing to worry about, lots of reasons to smile.

Today, I am choosing happiness. : )

Epidemya

Sa buhay ng tao sadyang may panahon ng kasiglahan at kalungkutan... Ngunit paano na kung hindi ka pinahihintulutang maging maligaya o kahit pati na ang malumbay? Ano ka na lang? Baliw? Mangmang? Hmm... Pwede. Pero ang nais kong bigyang tuon pansin ay mga epidemiya ng buhay buhay ng bawat nilalang dito sa mundong ibabaw.

Bigla ko lamang napagtanto na ang bawat epidemiya ay may pinagmumulan... Ang bawat usok ay may apoy na pinagsimulan... Ang bawat bahing ay mga mikrobyong pinanggalingan... Bata, bata paano ka ginawa?

Kung ikaw ay isa sa mga nabiktima ng sakit na Foot and Mouth Diease noon... Parang habag mo na, magpagaling ka na... Bakit kamo? Simple lang kasi Swine Flu na ngayon eh. Kailangan mong tanggapin ang katotohanan na lipas na 'yang sakit na pinasisikat mo, lahat ng kasabayan mong tinamaan ng sakit na 'yan ay magaling na... Fully recovered na lahat. Ilang sakit na ang lumipas: SARS, Birds Flu at madami pang iba. Pero ikaw Foot and Mouth Disease padin. Kahabag-habag na nilalang... Tsk tsk tsk.


Sige, lagyan natin ng twist... Kung hindi mo pa feel na magpagaling sa ngayon... Sige lang, Fine. Whatever. Ngunit, subalit, datapwat... Mahigpit na ipinitutupad at ipanauunawa sa mga taong may sakit na dapat silang mag-ingat sa mga taong nakasasalamuha nila upang maiwasan ang manghawa o magkahawaan. Huwag mong palalain ang sakit ng ibang pasyente na kasama mo sa ward. Huwag kang magulo. Huwag kang manguha ng gamot ng may gamot. Huwag mong pakielaman ang bisita ng katabi mong pasyente. Huwag mong harangin ang nurse ng mga kasama mong pasyente. Huwag mong isipin na ikaw lang ang katangi-tanging pasyente sa buong mundo na nararapat at nangangailangang lapatan ng lunas. Higit sa lahat... Huwag mong pasanin ang problema ng buong mundo... Kasi... Mabigat.

Isang krimen ang ipagkait sa ibang pasyente ang kaligayahan sana na makatutulong sa kanilang paggaling. Krimen din ang kwestiyunin ang kalungkutang nadarama ng isang pasyenteng nag-aalala kung paano siya gagaling. Huwag kang madamot. Huwag mong gustuhin na ikaw lang parati. Huwag mong ipagkait ang mga halakhak at mga luha sa mundo.


I tenk you. Bow!


PS: Pagaling ka na please...



Orinally written last July 3, 2009
by MGC

Thank You for the Tiny-strawberry coated-bottle.

I should have created a blog entry about this tiny-strawberry coated-bottle sometime last year, not long after it was given to me by someone... but then, every time I attempt to pursue it, something unexpected will happen that will cause me to just cross out the thought of making one in my mind. Five months have passed since the first time I laid eyes upon this tiny bottle and I never thought that I'd took hold of it again now. Things have been very convoluted to the extent that I almost stopped hoping for me to get this bottle out from where I kept it. For a couple of months this bottle stayed above my television set and so I was seeing it each time I turn the TV on. Up until such time that I decided to put it at the back of the TV set for me not to even have a glimpse of it.

Five months have passed... and it seems five years already. Twisted things have been straightened by God. And I am indeed thankful for during those times that He seemed very quiet, there He was doing His thing, turning His plans into oh so reality, touching my heart and her heart simultaneously, working out on situations that are not right, and softening our hardened hearts by remorse, hatred, unanswered queries, pain, namby-pamby thoughts - the bygone.

I was in the salon for my new do while I was reading a book that was given by a friend which was entitled Trading Places, I was moved with the thoughts written there and so I thought of the person who gave me this tiny-strawberry coated-bottle and I decided to send her a message and we exchanged some messages via SMS. There and then, things have been cleared out and relief came gushing in our hearts.

I am hopeful that something good will happen this time for things will never be the same again. Ditching everything that happened and facing today with forgiveness and relief in my heart will surely make things lovelier. Indeed, God is so amazing and overwhelming. : )

Photo taken the night this bottle was given to me.
December 20, 2008

Originally written last May 16, 2009
by MGC