God’s Greatest Hit

If I am not mistaken, the very first time I laid my feet on the podium of SSN’s sanctuary to sing on a Sunday service was on January 2, 2004. The worship leader then, assigned me to sing the solo part of the song I Offer My Life to You. I was so nervous that moment to the extent that I really felt my knees shivering and there was nothing I can do to stop it from doing so. Everything was a big dilemma. Hitting the right tone at the right timing, standing straight, picking up the appropriate clothes, holding a microphone the right way, even swaying and mingling with the music were a whole lot difficult to do. Mainly because… I am still unconvinced that I am worthy to stand there and be a part of the team that channels people into worship.

Now, I am glad to say that I can dictate my knees when it should shiver or not, I can now distinguish the right tone and the right timing before I open my mouth to the utter the lyrics, I can now stand straight, I have the appropriate wardrobe to choose from for a Sunday service, I have learned to hold the microphone properly, I can now jive and groove with the music our band generates. And I am a whole lot happier that nothing really changed with my last problem the moment I started singing… I am still unconvinced that I am worthy to stand before the congregation and be a part of a team that bridges people into worship.

I simply am not worthy to be where I am now… but see it is already 2009 and I am still holding a microphone every Sunday and it is a must to take note that I am (and the rest of the team) are now using wireless ones. This is not bragging or whatsoever, this is one way of telling to the world how God blessed us through the years – how He remained faithful to us, up until this very moment that we are called the Alabaster Team.

I thoroughly thank the Lord for without Him upholding me with His arms, I doubt if I could reach this far. This may not be too far, if being far it self is concerned, but with the many battles I have won because of this team ever since January 2, 2004, I can proudly say that all of these are close enough to being far. Yes, I know, God is not done with me yet and today I willingly say that it is all fine with me to be used more for His works. Probably, some things today are not fine but I believe that in His graciously perfect time, things will work out for the better and the best.

I may be clumsy enough to bump myself into mishaps and all but I have something in my heart today… I want to become that someone He will be proud of. I want to be God’s greatest hit! : )

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* I posted this in Alabaster Team's Yahoo group. : )